Letter #8 - The Virus
Coronavirus.
It’s made the last week really bad. You’re too little to really understand, you’re 4. I forget that all the time; mostly because you’re just such a smart kid and you’re so talkative.
There’s a pandemic happening right now. There’s a virus going around the world and it’s gotten so bad to the point where here in California we are on an order from the governor not to leave our houses. It’s been difficult for sure, aside from boredom and being locked in your home, it’s hard because I was supposed to fly to see you. I was so excited. I get to FaceTime you a lot, and you’re the most handsome little boy in the world,
But I can’t hold you...
..And that hurts.
There’s nothing more difficult for me than being able to see and hear you, but not being able to hold you. If I close my eyes I can feel your hair through my fingers, and can feel your chubby cheeks pressed up against mine, and I can sense the softness of your hand in mine.
I look at you in disbelief more often than you know.
I can’t believe you’re mine. You’re perfect and I don’t know how I had a part in creating you. I know I’ve said this before and I don’t want to minimize the sincerity of it, but you really are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I can’t even begin to tell you how often my mind is consumed with thoughts of you, where you are, what you’re doing, and if you’re ok.
A couple weeks ago I made a decision that I didn’t want to be a dad again for anyone else but you, and it was a difficult decision, but it was also the easiest.
How could I want anything more than my Jory Jude?
Today I played hide and seek with you over FaceTime, and each time I got to 10, you’d laugh and give yourself away, it was the cutest thing.
I love you Jory.
I have never been so focused on my work and future moves like I am now, and it’s solely because I’m preparing for the moment we will be together again and forever.
Be good for your mother, she’s having a hard time and she’s getting more frustrated than ever and faster than normal.
Do good listening and make sure she gets lots of hugs.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
I miss you.
Me haces tanta falta.
Be good booger. Always stay good.
-Dad